I felt like a big boy finally

Today i tried(finally) to place orders for a counter through itrade CIMB ( a portal for online stock exchange in Bursa Saham)

Not expecting much, the 1 pathetic unit i bought from BORNOIL raises from 0.505 to 0.55 today.

I "earn" my first RM40 on paper of course and i felt like a big BOY.
BIG BOYS rulezz..

Anyway, the brokerage cost will be RM40++...
so what do i earn? nothing.... !#@%$%#&#(##

Anyway... it is a good experience and most of all it somehow completes one of my resolution for 2011.

PTL~!

A long silence night

Tonight as usual, after an hectic day of work, I went out with my dear gf.
we had a conversation that sound like such:-

She:- Why didn't we go travel like your brother? They fly together
Me:- .....
She:- Are you listening?
Me:- Yes, but we have no money and planning for marriage ma.. (excuses as always)
She:- .... (without hesistatation) We had 5 pathetic years of courtship
Me:- ........ (A silent night)

I did some "soul" searching online and came across the definition of pathetic:-
1: having a capacity to move one to either compassionate or contemptuous pity
2: marked by sorrow or melancholy : sad
3: pitifully inferior or inadequate
4: absurd, laughable

We are always able to accept the fact that we could not perform or flare well at work.
Every year end, i will always expecting my boss to review my performance for one full year.

But have i reflect how do i flare as a boyfriend? Or have i done my part as a husband-to-be?
I do not want to be a laughable material(the last definition of pathetic), neither do i want to be sorrowful one.

I have to change... for better... in this long silence night...
If we expect assessment in work place, so must we expect assessment in relationship as well.

Food for my thoughts....

New year new post 2011

As i look at my last post... Oh No~! It was a year ago...
And tru enough i just turn 30~!

erm.... *waiting *waiting.....
Nothing different, i am still sitting at the same table typing this post

Okay... i will shout it loud on my 30 year old resolution:-

1) I will propose to Sharron this year.. when... i dont know.. how... i dont know... where... no idea...
2) I will save 20% of my pay for wedding
3) I will spend more time on the word of God this year
4) Shed 8 Kg from my current 75Kg..

Cool... let see how i will keep this resolution to makes them reality..