Tonight, it is a beautiful Saturday
As i sit down in my house and think, all my friends are getting married.
A sign of getting old d... friends around me are getting married..
Peer pressure..
But if i look back, marriage is an important event in life, but it is just another step in life that all has to take one day,sooner or later..
so instead of seeing this as a pressure, let me treat it as a reminder and be prepared to face it with love and anticipations..
Hehehe
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Saturday, August 06, 2011
6th Aug cant sleep
When a person cant sleep and sitting in front of the computer... what would they do a search on?
My guess would be:-
1) their own names
2) wikipedia
3) malaysiakini (if he/she is a malaysian)
4) xxxx (18SX)
5) zzzzzzzzzzz
Sorry fell asleep awhile
6) where was i? Okay, number (6), or is it number (5).. i think i need my sleep... good night~!!
My guess would be:-
1) their own names
2) wikipedia
3) malaysiakini (if he/she is a malaysian)
4) xxxx (18SX)
5) zzzzzzzzzzz
Sorry fell asleep awhile
6) where was i? Okay, number (6), or is it number (5).. i think i need my sleep... good night~!!
Friday, March 11, 2011
I felt like a big boy finally
Today i tried(finally) to place orders for a counter through itrade CIMB ( a portal for online stock exchange in Bursa Saham)
Not expecting much, the 1 pathetic unit i bought from BORNOIL raises from 0.505 to 0.55 today.
I "earn" my first RM40 on paper of course and i felt like a big BOY.
BIG BOYS rulezz..
Anyway, the brokerage cost will be RM40++...
so what do i earn? nothing.... !#@%$%#&#(##
Anyway... it is a good experience and most of all it somehow completes one of my resolution for 2011.
PTL~!
Not expecting much, the 1 pathetic unit i bought from BORNOIL raises from 0.505 to 0.55 today.
I "earn" my first RM40 on paper of course and i felt like a big BOY.
BIG BOYS rulezz..
Anyway, the brokerage cost will be RM40++...
so what do i earn? nothing.... !#@%$%#&#(##
Anyway... it is a good experience and most of all it somehow completes one of my resolution for 2011.
PTL~!
Thursday, March 03, 2011
A long silence night
Tonight as usual, after an hectic day of work, I went out with my dear gf.
we had a conversation that sound like such:-
She:- Why didn't we go travel like your brother? They fly together
Me:- .....
She:- Are you listening?
Me:- Yes, but we have no money and planning for marriage ma.. (excuses as always)
She:- .... (without hesistatation) We had 5 pathetic years of courtship
Me:- ........ (A silent night)
I did some "soul" searching online and came across the definition of pathetic:-
1: having a capacity to move one to either compassionate or contemptuous pity
2: marked by sorrow or melancholy : sad
3: pitifully inferior or inadequate
4: absurd, laughable
We are always able to accept the fact that we could not perform or flare well at work.
Every year end, i will always expecting my boss to review my performance for one full year.
But have i reflect how do i flare as a boyfriend? Or have i done my part as a husband-to-be?
I do not want to be a laughable material(the last definition of pathetic), neither do i want to be sorrowful one.
I have to change... for better... in this long silence night...
If we expect assessment in work place, so must we expect assessment in relationship as well.
Food for my thoughts....
we had a conversation that sound like such:-
She:- Why didn't we go travel like your brother? They fly together
Me:- .....
She:- Are you listening?
Me:- Yes, but we have no money and planning for marriage ma.. (excuses as always)
She:- .... (without hesistatation) We had 5 pathetic years of courtship
Me:- ........ (A silent night)
I did some "soul" searching online and came across the definition of pathetic:-
1: having a capacity to move one to either compassionate or contemptuous pity
2: marked by sorrow or melancholy : sad
3: pitifully inferior or inadequate
4: absurd, laughable
We are always able to accept the fact that we could not perform or flare well at work.
Every year end, i will always expecting my boss to review my performance for one full year.
But have i reflect how do i flare as a boyfriend? Or have i done my part as a husband-to-be?
I do not want to be a laughable material(the last definition of pathetic), neither do i want to be sorrowful one.
I have to change... for better... in this long silence night...
If we expect assessment in work place, so must we expect assessment in relationship as well.
Food for my thoughts....
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
New year new post 2011
As i look at my last post... Oh No~! It was a year ago...
And tru enough i just turn 30~!
erm.... *waiting *waiting.....
Nothing different, i am still sitting at the same table typing this post
Okay... i will shout it loud on my 30 year old resolution:-
1) I will propose to Sharron this year.. when... i dont know.. how... i dont know... where... no idea...
2) I will save 20% of my pay for wedding
3) I will spend more time on the word of God this year
4) Shed 8 Kg from my current 75Kg..
Cool... let see how i will keep this resolution to makes them reality..
And tru enough i just turn 30~!
erm.... *waiting *waiting.....
Nothing different, i am still sitting at the same table typing this post
Okay... i will shout it loud on my 30 year old resolution:-
1) I will propose to Sharron this year.. when... i dont know.. how... i dont know... where... no idea...
2) I will save 20% of my pay for wedding
3) I will spend more time on the word of God this year
4) Shed 8 Kg from my current 75Kg..
Cool... let see how i will keep this resolution to makes them reality..
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Life....
Just came back from work... Has to prepare a report, has to search online for Praise and worship songs... has lots to do... but my mind is only thinking of one thing...
Why life is so rush? Is it because i do not know how to prioritize or is it life is supposed to be like that?
Have you ever wonder? Have you ever encounter? Sometimes that it is better to do nothing and allow the situation to gets better than strive hard but aimlessly feeling helpless?
Hahaha
Do not think that i am helpless now... I am just tired... This is just a thought i have right now...
Why life is so rush? Is it because i do not know how to prioritize or is it life is supposed to be like that?
Have you ever wonder? Have you ever encounter? Sometimes that it is better to do nothing and allow the situation to gets better than strive hard but aimlessly feeling helpless?
Hahaha
Do not think that i am helpless now... I am just tired... This is just a thought i have right now...
Saturday, December 19, 2009
END OF 2009
Hi All,
It will be coming to an end of 2009 soon.
I know my blog has no one that comes and read allot.. (erm... no one to blame except myself who is inactive)
But i have to write something to "mark" the end of my 2009 and my new 2010.
If i were to write 3 most memorable things that happened in my life in 2009, they will be:-
1) To have the love&care from family members.
2) To went through MPC(Marriage preparation course) recently with Sharron.
3) To have good bosses at work.. (Yes, you are right, bosses... means more than 1)
Okay.. Bye bye 2009~! Here i come 2010~!
It will be coming to an end of 2009 soon.
I know my blog has no one that comes and read allot.. (erm... no one to blame except myself who is inactive)
But i have to write something to "mark" the end of my 2009 and my new 2010.
If i were to write 3 most memorable things that happened in my life in 2009, they will be:-
1) To have the love&care from family members.
2) To went through MPC(Marriage preparation course) recently with Sharron.
3) To have good bosses at work.. (Yes, you are right, bosses... means more than 1)
Okay.. Bye bye 2009~! Here i come 2010~!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Penang Hill (Part V)
Night of sharings...
SOme good thoughts we shared among us about courtship and relationship
1) Arguments is good sometimes
2) One party has to apologise REGARDLESS of you are right or wrong.
3) Listen is respect
4)
SOme good thoughts we shared among us about courtship and relationship
1) Arguments is good sometimes
2) One party has to apologise REGARDLESS of you are right or wrong.
3) Listen is respect
4)
Penang Hill (Part III)
Lost in transition?
The forced "3-2 nights"
PHOTOS + experience
1) Prayer answered.. Sharron and I
2) Van Keys -PDQ
The forced "3-2 nights"
PHOTOS + experience
1) Prayer answered.. Sharron and I
2) Van Keys -PDQ
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Penang Hill (Part II)
This Penang Hill Prayer retreat is all about prayer and life.
Sis Hannah was the speaker for this trip. She gave very sound and good advise.
Remembering one incident that happened in my life where i couldn't take control of.
It is as if i am so weak and helpless. As many has heard before, "both sides of your hand is also flesh of your own". I realised that Church can't do much, nor your friends around nor your siblings.
Time as such, only God can be our guide. And most of all, our comfort.
Sometimes, when sharron is down and i wanted to give her a word of advise, she end up being frustrated and asked me to keep quiet. I think this is all about, having God to be around to comfort you in quietness.
This trip is worthwhile as it is one that i captured back the love and presence of God in my life.
"Reality hits us in life, it is gonna be you and the world."
Sis Hannah was the speaker for this trip. She gave very sound and good advise.
Remembering one incident that happened in my life where i couldn't take control of.
It is as if i am so weak and helpless. As many has heard before, "both sides of your hand is also flesh of your own". I realised that Church can't do much, nor your friends around nor your siblings.
Time as such, only God can be our guide. And most of all, our comfort.
Sometimes, when sharron is down and i wanted to give her a word of advise, she end up being frustrated and asked me to keep quiet. I think this is all about, having God to be around to comfort you in quietness.
This trip is worthwhile as it is one that i captured back the love and presence of God in my life.
"Reality hits us in life, it is gonna be you and the world."
Penang Hill (Part I)
This Raya i spent my 3 days 2 night up in Penang Hill.
I will break down my experiences in few part and post them at my blog....
PART 1 - DAY 1
This is a 2-day-1-night trip for Children Ministry Prayer Retreat. I came with little/no expectations... however, God is so real for these few days.
Why did i mention 3-days-2-night and then mentioned again as 2-day-1-night trip?
All this will be explain in later stage...
This is such a beautiful songs and it was "given" to Sharron and I by God during time of ministering..
JESUS TAKE ME AS I AM
Words & Music: Dave Bryant
Jesus take me as I am,
I can come no other way.
Take me deeper into You,
Make my flesh life melt away.
Make me like a precious stone,
Crystal clear and finely honed.
Light of Jesus shining through,
Giving glory back to You.
Thanks God
I will break down my experiences in few part and post them at my blog....
PART 1 - DAY 1
This is a 2-day-1-night trip for Children Ministry Prayer Retreat. I came with little/no expectations... however, God is so real for these few days.
Why did i mention 3-days-2-night and then mentioned again as 2-day-1-night trip?
All this will be explain in later stage...
This is such a beautiful songs and it was "given" to Sharron and I by God during time of ministering..
JESUS TAKE ME AS I AM
Words & Music: Dave Bryant
Jesus take me as I am,
I can come no other way.
Take me deeper into You,
Make my flesh life melt away.
Make me like a precious stone,
Crystal clear and finely honed.
Light of Jesus shining through,
Giving glory back to You.
Thanks God
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I have a dream
I have a dream... A dream where i don't want to wake up.
I went to bed tired, wanting to take a nap, suddenly i heard footstep and i see shadow approaching. Without thinking twice, i think hiding beneath my bed is a good hideout place. It turns out i was wrong~! He broke the door and He came in with a chainsaw. I screamed and suddenly i woke up... Thank God i was dreaming.
Then, before i could put my feet onto the ground, i realised i am not in my usual cozy room. Oh no, this is not my bed... I am sleeping on a pool of blood.. "Whose blood could this be?",i asked myself. As i turned my head, i saw the puppy which grew up with me was slaughtered, the throat has been cut from left ear to the right ear. I screamed in fear...
"phew, a dream within a dream", i am awake now, all should be great... as i walk down the staircase into the kitchen to get a cup of water, i realised that there were sounds coming from the store room...
..
..
..
..
End...
I went to bed tired, wanting to take a nap, suddenly i heard footstep and i see shadow approaching. Without thinking twice, i think hiding beneath my bed is a good hideout place. It turns out i was wrong~! He broke the door and He came in with a chainsaw. I screamed and suddenly i woke up... Thank God i was dreaming.
Then, before i could put my feet onto the ground, i realised i am not in my usual cozy room. Oh no, this is not my bed... I am sleeping on a pool of blood.. "Whose blood could this be?",i asked myself. As i turned my head, i saw the puppy which grew up with me was slaughtered, the throat has been cut from left ear to the right ear. I screamed in fear...
"phew, a dream within a dream", i am awake now, all should be great... as i walk down the staircase into the kitchen to get a cup of water, i realised that there were sounds coming from the store room...
..
..
..
..
End...
Monday, August 10, 2009
Life without Goals is D.E.A.T.H
Hi all, i have been living without goals recently, that leaves my flesh and bones walking on earth with no life.... i had "Deliberately Ended All The Happiness" (D.E.A.T.H)
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Paces of life
In life, there is something what we call life journey. It is not constrains to a time line, neither is it constrains by distance. It is a journey that requires a lot of attentions and effort if one wants to gain most out of his life journey.
For example, one may make the same mistakes over and over again. Then he blames God for placing him into such situations. Did he learn from his life? I believe he did not. Why some will learn from their first mistakes…some will just go round and round and wouldn’t learn from it at all. I hope I am not in this category, but much often than not, I felt so helpless…as I know I made the same mistakes over and over again. YET I did not learn from it.
Before I can even talk about paces of life, I should start with concentrating on the development of my life. Before one 100M-sprint runner become fit for Olympic games, he has to train daily, besides running, he need proper diets, proper exercise and proper lifestyle such as waking up early and sleep early. In the same way, before one start to paced his life and move on, he has to look into his inner self, as he needs to have a proper diet (to feed oneself with the word of God), he needs to have proper exercise (to exercise his faith and to trust God in times of trouble), and lastly, to have a proper lifestyle (to live a holy life, to be more like Jesus each day).
Forgiveness is one of the hardest issues to learn in life. Once you are hurt, you felt like taking revenge, even feel like hating that person for the rest of your life. But is this the way or lifestyle of Jesus? Definitely not~ but it’s often easier to say than done. J I tried and tried and tried. It hurts even deeper if he/she is the person you trusted that hurts you. Everyone make mistakes…but things that are done purposely are the most painful of all. Unforgiveness is just like a hurdle that is so high that even a high-jump athlete can’t jump over it. It will no longer be paces of life, but pit stops-of-life.
When we hold grudges on others, when we refused to view from the other person’s point of view, when we don’t choose to see others from the view of God, then more often than not we will eventually think that we are always in the right. That will make us even more selfish. Selfishness will grow and eventually it will no longer be a thoughts, but now it is an act, then as the act grow bigger, it becomes a practices, then it will become a lifestyles.
When this lifestyles has becomes a habit, it will follows you like a shadow. Then slowly you will choose to be possessive towards yourself for your own benefits, possessive towards material things for your own benefits, even possessive towards others.
As a conclusion, I believe that God is love and that he has given us his son, Jesus as a life lesson on earth, so that we will grow more to be like him. THIS is the pace of life; this is the lesson of life à to be more like Him one day. But why do I call this “paces of life”? This is because it will be fast at times, and yet sometimes it will be slow to learn and grasp the meaning of life (which is to be more like Him). Therefore, I believe that paces of life will make one fast at times, yet sometimes slow. So, what is YOUR pace in following Jesus in life?
For example, one may make the same mistakes over and over again. Then he blames God for placing him into such situations. Did he learn from his life? I believe he did not. Why some will learn from their first mistakes…some will just go round and round and wouldn’t learn from it at all. I hope I am not in this category, but much often than not, I felt so helpless…as I know I made the same mistakes over and over again. YET I did not learn from it.
Before I can even talk about paces of life, I should start with concentrating on the development of my life. Before one 100M-sprint runner become fit for Olympic games, he has to train daily, besides running, he need proper diets, proper exercise and proper lifestyle such as waking up early and sleep early. In the same way, before one start to paced his life and move on, he has to look into his inner self, as he needs to have a proper diet (to feed oneself with the word of God), he needs to have proper exercise (to exercise his faith and to trust God in times of trouble), and lastly, to have a proper lifestyle (to live a holy life, to be more like Jesus each day).
Forgiveness is one of the hardest issues to learn in life. Once you are hurt, you felt like taking revenge, even feel like hating that person for the rest of your life. But is this the way or lifestyle of Jesus? Definitely not~ but it’s often easier to say than done. J I tried and tried and tried. It hurts even deeper if he/she is the person you trusted that hurts you. Everyone make mistakes…but things that are done purposely are the most painful of all. Unforgiveness is just like a hurdle that is so high that even a high-jump athlete can’t jump over it. It will no longer be paces of life, but pit stops-of-life.
When we hold grudges on others, when we refused to view from the other person’s point of view, when we don’t choose to see others from the view of God, then more often than not we will eventually think that we are always in the right. That will make us even more selfish. Selfishness will grow and eventually it will no longer be a thoughts, but now it is an act, then as the act grow bigger, it becomes a practices, then it will become a lifestyles.
When this lifestyles has becomes a habit, it will follows you like a shadow. Then slowly you will choose to be possessive towards yourself for your own benefits, possessive towards material things for your own benefits, even possessive towards others.
As a conclusion, I believe that God is love and that he has given us his son, Jesus as a life lesson on earth, so that we will grow more to be like him. THIS is the pace of life; this is the lesson of life à to be more like Him one day. But why do I call this “paces of life”? This is because it will be fast at times, and yet sometimes it will be slow to learn and grasp the meaning of life (which is to be more like Him). Therefore, I believe that paces of life will make one fast at times, yet sometimes slow. So, what is YOUR pace in following Jesus in life?
Flashbacks 2009
As i mentioned before this is the blog dedicated to Sharron Tan.
We had a wonderful valentine last night.
Went for a Youth Valentine Nite organised by S.Y.M to support them.
Then went to Yatai Mura for dinner. The place is so jam pack that we got to wait for almost 40 minutes... Okay.. where was I?
Oh ya... I had written quiet few letters to Sharron about life/friendship and etc etc...
Some are kinda interesting to me and i hope you enjoy reading....
We had a wonderful valentine last night.
Went for a Youth Valentine Nite organised by S.Y.M to support them.
Then went to Yatai Mura for dinner. The place is so jam pack that we got to wait for almost 40 minutes... Okay.. where was I?
Oh ya... I had written quiet few letters to Sharron about life/friendship and etc etc...
Some are kinda interesting to me and i hope you enjoy reading....
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
VBS 2008- Power Lab
"God gives us the power to be thankful!" "Ah-ha~"
That was the echo on today as 160 children gather at RGBC for once a year Vocational Bible School (VBS).
This time, instead of being the station leaders in games. I decided to takes on a new role.
As the worship leader. Hehe.. Instead of leading worship, we are supposed to dance and an old man like me would be hard to do so...
I cant remember the steps.. bla bla bla..
I had spend so much time on dance practises that i even dont have time for Sharron this week. Hahaha...
Forgive me dear...
Okay.. a new challange for a new year to come... I love challanges...
That was the echo on today as 160 children gather at RGBC for once a year Vocational Bible School (VBS).
This time, instead of being the station leaders in games. I decided to takes on a new role.
As the worship leader. Hehe.. Instead of leading worship, we are supposed to dance and an old man like me would be hard to do so...
I cant remember the steps.. bla bla bla..
I had spend so much time on dance practises that i even dont have time for Sharron this week. Hahaha...
Forgive me dear...
Okay.. a new challange for a new year to come... I love challanges...
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Where am i heading?
As i look back.. Malaysia has been in the eyes of the world for 50 years.
We were first "peers" to Japan, Korea and Taiwan 10 years ago...
Now we are considered as "peers" to Thailand and Indonesia...
Is this a kind of place where i want to live in? Is it a country that is moving forward or backward?
I know of a saying... what that doesn't move forward will move backward...
If Malaysia "CHOSE" to move BACKWARD... Then i have to MOVE ON with my life else where....
We were first "peers" to Japan, Korea and Taiwan 10 years ago...
Now we are considered as "peers" to Thailand and Indonesia...
Is this a kind of place where i want to live in? Is it a country that is moving forward or backward?
I know of a saying... what that doesn't move forward will move backward...
If Malaysia "CHOSE" to move BACKWARD... Then i have to MOVE ON with my life else where....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Yeah finally my house has internet
Hihi...
after so many days of waiting... my blog can be updated more frequently now...
Why?
Internet is ON~~
But in the same time i have bad news, the global slow down has hit my company and particularly my team.
We have our headcount freezed even when my job responsibility has doubled(due to transfer from USA)...
What kind of theory is this? Sad sad sad....
Okay for today, has to rest before tomorrow's audit... :(
after so many days of waiting... my blog can be updated more frequently now...
Why?
Internet is ON~~
But in the same time i have bad news, the global slow down has hit my company and particularly my team.
We have our headcount freezed even when my job responsibility has doubled(due to transfer from USA)...
What kind of theory is this? Sad sad sad....
Okay for today, has to rest before tomorrow's audit... :(
Monday, October 27, 2008
A tiger and a cow
Today i watch the talk show from Michael Hui( a popular artist of HK during 80's)
He mentioned that " In order to keep a long and lasting marriage life, sometimes the cow has to eat a little of meat while tiger has to eat a little of grass".
I do agree, tiger and cow is just like man and women.... these are 2 seperate beings with distintive characters and behavior trying to live together. Thus, sometimes have to "cheat" a little and pretend that i like grass though i am a carnivor....
Still an open questions in my mind.... But worth to ponder upon.. :->
He mentioned that " In order to keep a long and lasting marriage life, sometimes the cow has to eat a little of meat while tiger has to eat a little of grass".
I do agree, tiger and cow is just like man and women.... these are 2 seperate beings with distintive characters and behavior trying to live together. Thus, sometimes have to "cheat" a little and pretend that i like grass though i am a carnivor....
Still an open questions in my mind.... But worth to ponder upon.. :->
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