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Peer Pressure?

2011-08-13T20:59:00.002+08:00

Tonight, it is a beautiful Saturday
As i sit down in my house and think, all my friends are getting married.
A sign of getting old d... friends around me are getting married..
Peer pressure..
But if i look back, marriage is an important event in life, but it is just another step in life that all has to take one day,sooner or later..
so instead of seeing this as a pressure, let me treat it as a reminder and be prepared to face it with love and anticipations..

Hehehe

6th Aug cant sleep

2011-08-06T03:01:00.001+08:00

When a person cant sleep and sitting in front of the computer... what would they do a search on?
My guess would be:-
1) their own names
2) wikipedia
3) malaysiakini (if he/she is a malaysian)
4) xxxx (18SX)
5) zzzzzzzzzzz
Sorry fell asleep awhile
6) where was i? Okay, number (6), or is it number (5).. i think i need my sleep... good night~!!

I felt like a big boy finally

2011-03-11T01:30:00.002+08:00

Today i tried(finally) to place orders for a counter through itrade CIMB ( a portal for online stock exchange in Bursa Saham)

Not expecting much, the 1 pathetic unit i bought from BORNOIL raises from 0.505 to 0.55 today.

I "earn" my first RM40 on paper of course and i felt like a big BOY.
BIG BOYS rulezz..

Anyway, the brokerage cost will be RM40++...
so what do i earn? nothing.... !#@%$%#&#(##

Anyway... it is a good experience and most of all it somehow completes one of my resolution for 2011.

PTL~!

A long silence night

2011-03-03T00:07:00.003+08:00

Tonight as usual, after an hectic day of work, I went out with my dear gf.
we had a conversation that sound like such:-

She:- Why didn't we go travel like your brother? They fly together
Me:- .....
She:- Are you listening?
Me:- Yes, but we have no money and planning for marriage ma.. (excuses as always)
She:- .... (without hesistatation) We had 5 pathetic years of courtship
Me:- ........ (A silent night)

I did some "soul" searching online and came across the definition of pathetic:-
1: having a capacity to move one to either compassionate or contemptuous pity
2: marked by sorrow or melancholy : sad
3: pitifully inferior or inadequate
4: absurd, laughable

We are always able to accept the fact that we could not perform or flare well at work.
Every year end, i will always expecting my boss to review my performance for one full year.

But have i reflect how do i flare as a boyfriend? Or have i done my part as a husband-to-be?
I do not want to be a laughable material(the last definition of pathetic), neither do i want to be sorrowful one.

I have to change... for better... in this long silence night...
If we expect assessment in work place, so must we expect assessment in relationship as well.

Food for my thoughts....

New year new post 2011

2011-03-01T20:27:00.001+08:00

As i look at my last post... Oh No~! It was a year ago...
And tru enough i just turn 30~!

erm.... *waiting *waiting.....
Nothing different, i am still sitting at the same table typing this post

Okay... i will shout it loud on my 30 year old resolution:-

1) I will propose to Sharron this year.. when... i dont know.. how... i dont know... where... no idea...
2) I will save 20% of my pay for wedding
3) I will spend more time on the word of God this year
4) Shed 8 Kg from my current 75Kg..

Cool... let see how i will keep this resolution to makes them reality..

Life....

2010-03-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

Just came back from work... Has to prepare a report, has to search online for Praise and worship songs... has lots to do... but my mind is only thinking of one thing...

Why life is so rush? Is it because i do not know how to prioritize or is it life is supposed to be like that?

Have you ever wonder? Have you ever encounter? Sometimes that it is better to do nothing and allow the situation to gets better than strive hard but aimlessly feeling helpless?

Hahaha
Do not think that i am helpless now... I am just tired... This is just a thought i have right now...

END OF 2009

2009-12-19T01:43:00.002+08:00

Hi All,

It will be coming to an end of 2009 soon.

I know my blog has no one that comes and read allot.. (erm... no one to blame except myself who is inactive)
But i have to write something to "mark" the end of my 2009 and my new 2010.

If i were to write 3 most memorable things that happened in my life in 2009, they will be:-
1) To have the love&care from family members.
2) To went through MPC(Marriage preparation course) recently with Sharron.
3) To have good bosses at work.. (Yes, you are right, bosses... means more than 1)

Okay.. Bye bye 2009~! Here i come 2010~!

Penang Hill (Part II)

2009-09-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

This Penang Hill Prayer retreat is all about prayer and life.

Sis Hannah was the speaker for this trip. She gave very sound and good advise.
Remembering one incident that happened in my life where i couldn't take control of.
It is as if i am so weak and helpless. As many has heard before, "both sides of your hand is also flesh of your own". I realised that Church can't do much, nor your friends around nor your siblings.

Time as such, only God can be our guide. And most of all, our comfort.

Sometimes, when sharron is down and i wanted to give her a word of advise, she end up being frustrated and asked me to keep quiet. I think this is all about, having God to be around to comfort you in quietness.

This trip is worthwhile as it is one that i captured back the love and presence of God in my life.

"Reality hits us in life, it is gonna be you and the world."

Penang Hill (Part I)

2009-09-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

This Raya i spent my 3 days 2 night up in Penang Hill.

I will break down my experiences in few part and post them at my blog....

PART 1 - DAY 1
This is a 2-day-1-night trip for Children Ministry Prayer Retreat. I came with little/no expectations... however, God is so real for these few days.
Why did i mention 3-days-2-night and then mentioned again as 2-day-1-night trip?

All this will be explain in later stage...

This is such a beautiful songs and it was "given" to Sharron and I by God during time of ministering..

JESUS TAKE ME AS I AM
Words & Music: Dave Bryant

Jesus take me as I am,
I can come no other way.
Take me deeper into You,
Make my flesh life melt away.
Make me like a precious stone,
Crystal clear and finely honed.
Light of Jesus shining through,
Giving glory back to You.

Thanks God

I have a dream

2009-08-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

I have a dream... A dream where i don't want to wake up.

I went to bed tired, wanting to take a nap, suddenly i heard footstep and i see shadow approaching. Without thinking twice, i think hiding beneath my bed is a good hideout place. It turns out i was wrong~! He broke the door and He came in with a chainsaw. I screamed and suddenly i woke up... Thank God i was dreaming.

Then, before i could put my feet onto the ground, i realised i am not in my usual cozy room. Oh no, this is not my bed... I am sleeping on a pool of blood.. "Whose blood could this be?",i asked myself. As i turned my head, i saw the puppy which grew up with me was slaughtered, the throat has been cut from left ear to the right ear. I screamed in fear...

"phew, a dream within a dream", i am awake now, all should be great... as i walk down the staircase into the kitchen to get a cup of water, i realised that there were sounds coming from the store room...

..
..
..
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End...

Life without Goals is D.E.A.T.H

2009-08-10T06:58:00.001+08:00

Hi all, i have been living without goals recently, that leaves my flesh and bones walking on earth with no life.... i had "Deliberately Ended All The Happiness" (D.E.A.T.H)

Paces of life

2009-02-15T17:47:00.000+08:00

In life, there is something what we call life journey. It is not constrains to a time line, neither is it constrains by distance. It is a journey that requires a lot of attentions and effort if one wants to gain most out of his life journey.

For example, one may make the same mistakes over and over again. Then he blames God for placing him into such situations. Did he learn from his life? I believe he did not. Why some will learn from their first mistakes…some will just go round and round and wouldn’t learn from it at all. I hope I am not in this category, but much often than not, I felt so helpless…as I know I made the same mistakes over and over again. YET I did not learn from it.

Before I can even talk about paces of life, I should start with concentrating on the development of my life. Before one 100M-sprint runner become fit for Olympic games, he has to train daily, besides running, he need proper diets, proper exercise and proper lifestyle such as waking up early and sleep early. In the same way, before one start to paced his life and move on, he has to look into his inner self, as he needs to have a proper diet (to feed oneself with the word of God), he needs to have proper exercise (to exercise his faith and to trust God in times of trouble), and lastly, to have a proper lifestyle (to live a holy life, to be more like Jesus each day).

Forgiveness is one of the hardest issues to learn in life. Once you are hurt, you felt like taking revenge, even feel like hating that person for the rest of your life. But is this the way or lifestyle of Jesus? Definitely not~ but it’s often easier to say than done. J I tried and tried and tried. It hurts even deeper if he/she is the person you trusted that hurts you. Everyone make mistakes…but things that are done purposely are the most painful of all. Unforgiveness is just like a hurdle that is so high that even a high-jump athlete can’t jump over it. It will no longer be paces of life, but pit stops-of-life.

When we hold grudges on others, when we refused to view from the other person’s point of view, when we don’t choose to see others from the view of God, then more often than not we will eventually think that we are always in the right. That will make us even more selfish. Selfishness will grow and eventually it will no longer be a thoughts, but now it is an act, then as the act grow bigger, it becomes a practices, then it will become a lifestyles.
When this lifestyles has becomes a habit, it will follows you like a shadow. Then slowly you will choose to be possessive towards yourself for your own benefits, possessive towards material things for your own benefits, even possessive towards others.

As a conclusion, I believe that God is love and that he has given us his son, Jesus as a life lesson on earth, so that we will grow more to be like him. THIS is the pace of life; this is the lesson of life à to be more like Him one day. But why do I call this “paces of life”? This is because it will be fast at times, and yet sometimes it will be slow to learn and grasp the meaning of life (which is to be more like Him). Therefore, I believe that paces of life will make one fast at times, yet sometimes slow. So, what is YOUR pace in following Jesus in life?

Flashbacks 2009

2009-02-15T17:40:00.003+08:00

As i mentioned before this is the blog dedicated to Sharron Tan.

We had a wonderful valentine last night.

Went for a Youth Valentine Nite organised by S.Y.M to support them.

Then went to Yatai Mura for dinner. The place is so jam pack that we got to wait for almost 40 minutes... Okay.. where was I?

Oh ya... I had written quiet few letters to Sharron about life/friendship and etc etc...
Some are kinda interesting to me and i hope you enjoy reading....

VBS 2008- Power Lab

2008-11-26T00:46:00.002+08:00

"God gives us the power to be thankful!" "Ah-ha~"

That was the echo on today as 160 children gather at RGBC for once a year Vocational Bible School (VBS).

This time, instead of being the station leaders in games. I decided to takes on a new role.
As the worship leader. Hehe.. Instead of leading worship, we are supposed to dance and an old man like me would be hard to do so...

I cant remember the steps.. bla bla bla..

I had spend so much time on dance practises that i even dont have time for Sharron this week. Hahaha...

Forgive me dear...

Okay.. a new challange for a new year to come... I love challanges...

Where am i heading?

2008-11-15T01:53:00.002+08:00

As i look back.. Malaysia has been in the eyes of the world for 50 years.
We were first "peers" to Japan, Korea and Taiwan 10 years ago...
Now we are considered as "peers" to Thailand and Indonesia...

Is this a kind of place where i want to live in? Is it a country that is moving forward or backward?
I know of a saying... what that doesn't move forward will move backward...

If Malaysia "CHOSE" to move BACKWARD... Then i have to MOVE ON with my life else where....

Yeah finally my house has internet

2008-11-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hihi...

after so many days of waiting... my blog can be updated more frequently now...
Why?
Internet is ON~~

But in the same time i have bad news, the global slow down has hit my company and particularly my team.
We have our headcount freezed even when my job responsibility has doubled(due to transfer from USA)...

What kind of theory is this? Sad sad sad....

Okay for today, has to rest before tomorrow's audit... :(

A tiger and a cow

2008-10-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

Today i watch the talk show from Michael Hui( a popular artist of HK during 80's)

He mentioned that " In order to keep a long and lasting marriage life, sometimes the cow has to eat a little of meat while tiger has to eat a little of grass".

I do agree, tiger and cow is just like man and women.... these are 2 seperate beings with distintive characters and behavior trying to live together. Thus, sometimes have to "cheat" a little and pretend that i like grass though i am a carnivor....

Still an open questions in my mind.... But worth to ponder upon.. :->

Sad sad news today

2008-10-18T19:46:00.002+08:00

Today as usual i came to RKC (Randiant Kidz) a place where i serve as a children leader.

There is a boy by the name of Andy( fake name- to protect his identity), he is a young boy of only 4 years old(i guess)... but since young after the parents seperated, he lives with his ah ma.

All these years it's his dad that gave his daily expenses to his ah ma. Now the father has stop giving and his mum has stop visiting him...
Now THE WORST NEWS is he will be send to a orphanage in KL~~!!!

I dont know what should i respond? Should i respond in anger or should i respond in love?

This is iroonic~~ When 2 falls in love... they "dot dot dot" then when the kid is born... they ran away from their responsibility...

I am speechless......

WIll andy grows up hating this world? Will he chose to see this world from another angle?

I do have the sudden urge to adopt him... but i am disqualified...speechless....

At last i am back in blogging **Yawn

2008-10-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

After few weeks of hectic works... work and work..
Finally i am back with blogging...

Sad to say Alan Leow Thean Siang DONT have internet access at home thus updating the blog is like almost impossible for him...

This is what i picture myself after this month... I will fix internet access at home(which is better? streamyx? Celcom? or Maxis USB?), then i will blog and blog and blog... Muahaha...

Then i can really dedicate this blog to my loves one every night...

Anyway, recently i just bought a house and i have to take a loan... :(
Now i have more commitment... insurance to pay for, car loan to pay for, & now a house loan to pay for... SAD SAD SAD

Lately i come across HLA Promise endownment Plan.. It sounds intresting and it sought of good at bad times like this... However, is there any better saving tools or plans/strategy you guys have in making money?

Hehe... crazy about earning money so that i could speed up my wedding days... :)

Okay for now.. Too much thoughts running through my head tonight.

That's all... Byebye

Sad times will go... Future is close....

2008-07-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

I have been working for almost 3 years now. As i look back, i dont know what should i say to myself... I am aimlessly aiming. I NEVER think the job i have, the title i bear ("engineer") and the life i live now is WHAT I WANT in life.

Life is more than that~ Future might seems so far from our sight but it is always close to our heart. Let not the future vanish into thin air...

love,
alan

A tiring trip to US

2008-07-25T13:01:00.002+08:00

Hi all,

It has been 2 weeks since i last blog.

I have been in US for 2 weeks and it is very tiring as i have allot to cover and learn,
But at the same time i am eager to come to US as all stuff are cheaper~ Imagine that i could get anew nike for RM100+, a bottle of drink(1 gal) for just .68 cents
Ok, its late and i should go to bed.. Nite nite

Revelation at SALAM

2008-07-12T16:33:00.002+08:00

After 2 years of ** sleeping**..hehe.. sorry that my blog is dead for 2 years..

Just like the chinese kung fu story, i have to go up to the "hill" of Plexus and train to be a better man... erm.. better carreer infact.

By the way, i was busy with Sharron ministry as well.... Who? WHo is this Sharron?

She is my girl friend lor.. You remember back in the POST of "The DAYs In Malacca "(August 05).. the girl which i did a present for her lor...

By the way, we just celebrated our 2 years anniversary...

OK.. enough of craps.....

NOW today as in SALAM(mamak stall) , TIME:- 4:42p.m , I hereby declared that i will dedicate this website(alanlts.blogspot) to Sharron & I.

Will post on the journey of our life here...

Keep in touch friends~~~

The Song that attracts me recently

2005-09-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

These few days as i travel to work to and fro in a jammed street....This song keep on playing in radio that catches my attention:-

Just the Girl - The Click Five

"She's cold and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing
She pushed me in the pool at our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams but I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems she's the one I'm after

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

She can't keep a secret for more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me, the more I adore her
What can I do - I'd do anything for her

repeat Chorus

And when she sees it me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up yet
Cause every word she's every said
Is still ringing in my head
Still ringing in my head

She's cold and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing
Knows just what to say so my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for"

I donno why...sometimes...a gurl that is like that will attracts more guys than miss goody goody ...Hahahha :D

Ungu Violet

2005-09-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

I just watched ungu violet with some of my friends...The movie is boring and the story line is so so..... but one thing i like about the movie (obviously it is advertistment that attracts me).....which is the song the played. I cant play music here...so i get the song's lyrics here...Hahahha To satisfy myself...and entertain myself...If you guys want the song...ask from me ler...I have it in my computer...

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban
---------Padi------------

aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
aku tlah terpagut oleh cintamu
menelusup hariku dengan harapan
namun kau masih terdiam membisu

reff: sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
mendekap penuh harapan 'tuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
menanti sebuah jawaban 'tuk memilikimu

betapa derunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
semoga kau tahu isi hatiku
dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

repeat reff

aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu

A testimony to share ^_*

2005-08-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

On Sunday...alot id just another coincidence to people..but to me..They are all God's Plans..Okiokie...just an opening ...will share more in next blog...as i am now writting and applying jobs online...Man~~ The convo makes me nervous and uneasy to see all frens with jobs and i am still jobless...:((....heheh...but i am sure my God is great and HE has a plan for me..

The DAYs In Malacca

2005-08-08T16:30:00.000+08:00

On Thursday (4-8-2005) -- I woke as early as 730a.m and did something for a friend of mine.**hehehe for me to know; for you to find out ** then, by 8plus i am back at home and rushed to the nearest bus stop at Padang Tembak and then off i go to KL~! KL here i come..

vroom....after few hours of travelling....**me sleeping..dunno what had happened** The next thing i know...a phone rang and it was my dad..He asked me where i am, I just answered "I dont know dad...ermm..yayay...just saw a signboard..70KM away from KL..near d near d".

Then after going through thick "forest" and heavy "winds" i finally arrived in my sister's house around 8p.m..Then she brought me to "once the biggest mall in KL"-- SUBANG PARADE. We shop for more than 2 hours for her new specacles...MAn~ I wish i could have been on the bed sleeping now...:p But thanks to God she is happy with her new specs.

One day has pass and now i am going to sleep liao....

On Friday (5-8-2005)--another boring day of travelling..as my convocations is in Malacca...ermm..for those who dont know what happened...i just graduated "not long ago" (**erm...3 months PLUS d**)...and the convocation is on saturday **which is tmr lar** so i got to get to malacca campus to get all my invitation card and stuff...okok..boring story apart..then bla bla bla...and one day passed...

On Saturday (6-8-2005)-- As early as 5.30a.m and all of us got to be awake d...who on earh will have convocation as early as 730a.m one? CRAZY~~ but since MMU has set the time...cant do much lor...It was very BORING ceremony...and it got worst when the chencelor starts talking...BUT all thanks to a freind that is willing to reply my boring SMSes and also a bunch of wacky guys that share some stupid jokes in the hall itself...These has make me more lively and avoid me of falling alseep and miss my turn to receive the scroll...

Then we have picture taking sessions lor...yaya...I want to thank specially for cynthia and michael for making an effort to come all the way from JB for our convo and also siang hui for the pen that you shared with them for me..And also shu wan for her sudden sms..thought you forget me liao..and also chee meng for your sms and concerns and michael tang that "just accidently was there":D..and my frens and coursemates that makes my convo not lonely...like Cynthia chuah, ai mei, kian tee, kian tuck, joash, su chen,fang fang,han beng,soo hin,ken jee(where are you ahr?),kenneth, jeremy (where is my watch again? :P) and many many more...Last but not least...sharron from Penang that 'kills my boringness" with weird sms...

KK...enuff d...byebye

Calculating the days i have been jobless

2005-07-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

From the day i have graduated till now.It has been like 3 month(may be lesser...OR MAY BE MORE~! ...WhatEvEr...just don't like to count it till the very dot.) :p

What i have been doing since i came back from Vietnam? Basically i travel a few place for interviews.Then i apply and apply for jobs....Then dont hear much replies. So till this day i am still JOBLESS~!! AHh....the ever last thing i ever want to think of?! What would my freind say about me? What will my neighbour that sees me everyday think of me? What would my parents think of me? What would i think of myself?

Hai````No answers ...only dead airs......by the way...i had few achievements....

I have finish few TVB series...
1) To get unstuck in times
2) my family
3) To love till the end

I have also watch two animes
1) NARUTO
2) hikaru no go

hai~~~ lousy achivement...By the way now i am reading a book cvalled "purpose driven life" it basically talks about why we are on earth for~! So any of you intrested message me..Then i send a copy of the book to you.;)

That's all for tonight~! gambatthe my frens~!

10 days that makes me see the world

2005-05-16T01:51:00.000+08:00

I finally understood why people says that once you've been to other part of the world.You will know that the world is very unique in nature...

I was down in Vietnam for the past 10 days from 2nd May till 11th May.

The first day when i reach Veitnam..I was lost as i dont speaks a word of vietnamese.And their english is generally poor.So i find it hard to adapt there. However, they are the friendliest people i ever met since the day i was born ...Serious~! They can just know you for 20 minutes and the next thing you know, they talk to you like buddiest,even with their broken english.Erm...They also will treat you free lunch and dinner...with no string attached or whatsoever.

the second day, we(paul , yin leng and i) visited the independance palace.As the time when we went to Vietnam, it's their 30 anniversary Liberalism Day, so we manage to see nice decorations all over the streets in Ho Chi Minh City (HCMC) and also "Uncle Ho"'s faces all over every buildings. ** i am not overly-describe**

Then we went to the War museum, then i see the shameful sight of US during the Vietnam War, i would call it as the "Vietnam the Victim" rather than a war.US bombed the North Vietnam with more than 3000Tonnes of bombs. I see the ugliest side of war and seeing the civilians that suffered more than the soldiers.It makes my heart cried out for the victims. I went home sadden.

The rest of the 8 days i spent them in universities around HCMC. Talking and sharing my life with them. :)

Erm....will share more next time round...sleeping lor...Nites!

How will the world be without him?

2005-03-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today is a very meanigful day to alot of Christian.It is a day where we remember the sacrifice of Jesus on the Cross for us.

Thank you Jesus.He died on the cross to potray the LOVE OF GOD for his people.

:)

alan

Today i am happier then yesterday

2005-03-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i had my final year project handed in and my lecturer is happie with it.Today i have my german test..though i didn;t speak good german..but my lecturer is happy with our perormance..:P

so relief~! 2 down..one more to go..Tonight i will finish my last lab report of my entire Enginerring degree..and i am done..no more h/w..~! >:)

anyway..wil miss teh homework..but who cares? Now has to concerntarte for final and make sure i pass 3 of teh paper to graduate~!
:) all my hard work paid off..thank you Lord and thanks you all for supporting me all thsi while.

updates from penangnites

2005-03-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

finally i get some links to the own blog user from penang fren..They are listed in RGBCians...ermm...andrew,thomas(pastor>:)), pheng pheng(soon to be pastor) and matthew gan~!

;)

happy blogging

finally one down..another one tmr...:)

2005-03-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord..Finally the FYP presentation is over liao..relief and happie..But will miss the sleepless nites and staying up late to think how to solve my circuitry problem.:)

Thanks fren..I realised that the prayers of everyone has won the heart of God that He has make my supervisor and moderator to be happy with my work from the begining till the end. The half an hour was so easy to pass..easier than in exam(at least).

Thank you people who prayed for me..Thanks again..

ok now studying GERMAN..tomorrow oral test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHH~!!!!!!!!!!woo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no ah~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))
:P

Counting the days in uni

2005-03-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

Hai~~~ where have i been?

Counting the last day i blog till now..it has been like 1 and a half month ...but to me...it just like days....The reason is that i have been too busy with my final year project...that i eat,sleep and shit with it :P....i hate my fyp...i felt i am doing all alone though i have a supervisor that suppose to guide me..He always give me very insightful ideas and motivations" Go back and think yourself" very useful and very fruitful saying..IF uni let you have a supervisor to be lke that...i think i can be a better supervisor...i will at least say "I wont fail you, though i dunno what you are doing", "keep it up, you are on the right track"..can't he say such thing?

anyway, Praise the Lord, my project is really going somewhere now...i have just pass up my report..so now left with the presentation next week.I dunno what on earth he will ask me..But i will just cross my finger and hope for the best...

That's all for now...i am really counting my days to leave tis horrible uni...but to where? to do what? now i am confused..:P

voices from a desperate guy's cries.............

Hehehhe....su chen got blog~!

2005-01-31T15:26:00.000+08:00

su chen got blog d...visit her..Lepak~!
http://eihcus.blogspot.com/

Powerless????

2005-01-26T01:20:00.000+08:00

I read this article and find it very real in our christian life...even in our daily life..so i decided to post it on my blog...enjoy fren..hehe a little long winded though

Powerless
And she said, "The philistines are upon you, Samson!" So he awoke from his sleep,and said, "1 will go out as before, at other times, and shake myself free!"But he did not know that the Lord had departed from him.JUDGES 16:20

One of the signs of a heart that has shifted from God is the absence of spiritual power. If you are like Samson, you will not be immediately aware that God's power has left you. Only after he tried to defeat his enemies did Samson recognize that something was wrong. He went against the Philistines as before, expecting their swift defeat. But this time the Philistines easily prevailed over him.

If you allow sin to creep into your life, if you refuse to obey your Lord, if you do not reconcile with those who have hurt you, your spiritual vitality is waning. You may assume everything is fine, but when you pray, answers do not come as they once did. You once had a positive effect on those around you, but now your influence is negligible or even harmful. Your life once brought reconciliation, but now you experience problems in your relationships. Those around you who have relied upon your strength are discovering that you are not as helpful to them as you once were. Your lack of spiritual power is not crying out for attention; but you are seeing subtle changes in your spirit and in your relationship with God.

How can you stop this spiritual decline? You must regularly repent of any sin. You must invite God to search your life to see if there are attitudes, relationships, or activities that need to be removed. You must fervently obey His will. If you walk with God in this manner, you will grow in spiritual strength and be used mightily by Him.

Adapted from Experiencing God Day-by-Dayby
Broadman & Holman Publishers

Life is indeed a miravle by itself

2005-01-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

Life is a Miracle

Life is a Miracle
don't let it slip away,
Open your heart to others
give of yourself each day.

See the Beauty in everyone
regardless of where they've been,
Some have a difficult journey
and really need a friend.

Share your talents
Listen with your heart.
Do the things you dream about
but don't have time to start.

Pick a bouquet of flowers
show someone that you care,
Be gracious and forgiving
Life is never fair.

Hold on to your courage
you may need it down the road,
We all have a cross to bear
it could be a heavy load.

If you practice all these things
no matter where you roam,
You may find both sun and rain
but you'll never feel alone.

author:unknown

Just a pit stop

2005-01-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a retreat organised by CCF...:) tired but fulfilling..will upload some pics tmr then...

From my heart:-
At times life is half empty
yet at times it is half filled
what is the difference?
it all depends on us infact

God is love that's for sure
He cares more than we do
and when we are troubled by unanswered question
look to HIM... in sincere prayer

time is precious

2005-01-21T08:58:00.000+08:00

Hey...i believe everyone's time is precious..
I hate to wait for you yet you didn't turn up
I hate to expect something from the discussion and yet turn out empty

so i dont want to waste the time of those who are reading this as well...so i shall stop now...

i have a meeting at 9a.m this morning...see how i let my groupmates wait for me now...i am a inconsistent person..say one thing and do the other..when will i change? :P

The forgotten

2005-01-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

At the Vienna Music Hall
Franz Joseph Haydn’s masterpiece was presented,
“The Generation” was known to all.

Weakened by his age,
The great composer was confined to wheelchair,
Yet his fame on his times needless to say.

As the majestic work moved along,
The audience was caught up with tremendous emotion,
The song is alive and warmth.

When the passage," And there was light!" was reached,
The chorus and orchestra forth in such powerful piece of music
Audience’s enthusiasm could no longer be restrained.

The vast assembly rose in spontaneous applause.
Hadyn struggled to rise and motioned for silence.
In the mist of all applause that was loud.

With his hand pointed toward heaven,
He said," No, not me, from thence comes all!”.
He gave glory and praise to the Creator, maker of earth and heaven.

What was missing all in all?
Is the creator has been forgotten
By us all?

Forgotten……
Yet He chose to love us
Forgotten……
Yet He chose to die for us
Forgotten……
Yet He chose to be your friend.

Today He has not forgotten you
Do you want to come to Him then?

Emotionally written

2005-01-20T04:17:00.000+08:00

I think he/she is emotionally hurt when it's written,so i decide to paste this on

"I felt cheated though you didn’t realized
Each time you say you care
But you didn’t seems to act what you said
I am fed up with what you said
You don’t care at all

I hate you when you look at me like that
I hate you for being so nice to me
I hate you for bringing lunch to me
Now I hate you because you are stuck in my heart
"

My day~!

2005-01-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

Today i woke up and had my devotion..the title was "what would you do when Jesus came?"...hmm....i dont think i am ready at all.That's why i got to do something~! do what? i also donno...But one thing i know,when he ever come...i will be very happy ;)

my fyp still is a drag...felt that the burden has lifted a little.After ,uch prayer and head cracking..now i got my viarable voltage regulator, fast switching gate drives done d..left with the PWm generator and current limiting circuit.when all done by this week (hopefully) i can starts working together with my partner ;) yipee~!

new year coming d lor...my family plans to go cameron Highlands and genting...both also at the top of a hill...why? i donno...wanna be closer to God kua..or just a pure coincidence..:)

ok for today...now is 2p.m d...can go lab and starts working on my project~! Gambatthe~!

Begining or the Final?

2005-01-08T08:53:00.000+08:00

This week is the first week of 2005 yet i felt a great burden on me due to my FYP..er..Final year project...It's tough man~! It seems it's the end rather than a begining for me.

As for now my final year project was slow and with little progress,but one thing i have learned..that is to trust God even more in this kind of situation.To be above all, i have a very disciplined life now,sleep early,wake up early and have devotions before my day start.:)

I believe all this are part of God's miracles in my life and i will cherish this moment of storm in God.

Last night, i went back to my belove "Commonwlth CG" after 4 months M.I.A in that CG(ehh...not i am lazy you know~! i went for industrial training in Penang then.Chris encourage us take out a piece of paper and write down the goals of we want to set for ourself this year.I wrote few and suddenly a thoughts comes to me ,i felt "man~! life is so pointless when we dont have goals at all" hehe :D

ok for today~! Remeber this,we are fearfully and wonderfully made by God...:)

Why am i so troubled?

2004-12-17T05:53:00.000+08:00

I felt soooo troubled and i can't sleep...thinking of her may be...but most of all , it might due to yesterday's afternoon nap kua...

Lord..save me save me~! :p

Last day in Penang :(

2004-12-17T05:29:00.000+08:00

Today is 17th DEC 2004 and i am still in front of my bro's comp at 434a.m(hehe...still awake still)....thinking of the pass 3 months when i came back penang and work.Hai~ learned a little and most of the goals i set for myself...none i have achieved...

But i do praise God that i have learned more about God in a recent Youth Camp by RGBC...yes that's the church i grew up with. I really praised God for this 3 months and the friendship i had build during this 3 months with my frens from company(ind trainning) and church(the ever-ready-loving-God youth).

So that's all for today...first time writting blog..should keep them short..:P